released July 13, 2013

The dorkestra was Sam Hunt, Sijal Nasralla and Noah Barratt.

Recorded by David Barrett.

Mixed by Rosser Douglas and Slamming Door Orchestra.


WELLSPRING OF NOTHING

open up
look inside
do You find
nothing?

nothing right
nothing wrong
I do not feel
strongly

strength is fine
let me be weak
let the world
shape me

I see shapes
I see dear things
every second a
new age

You grow old
You go around
moving fast and
slowly

slam the door
keep it locked
You cannot
block light

light is love
love is all
let it fill your
window

dark is fine
let it rest
let it be
nothing


SUN THROUGH ROOF

sun through dirty windows through
smoke through wasp nest rafters through
pigeon bone roofs

the fly flies but into glass
that only lets sunlight past
the moth long dead
dangles in the abandoned web
on the damp underside
sudden maggots where
the cat was buried

sun through dirty windows through
smoke through wasp nest rafters through
pigeon bone roofs

in the factory the people move
on the grid in an endless loop
the people think and
daydream less each day
the master lets them
know what is enough
whether factories have doors out

things like when I close the door
it slams like it didn't before


DO YOU GO?

it's not what We thought it would be
it's the beginning of what used to be
it's the end of everything we held to be true

and it's not what We held so dear
it's the beginning of a million years
so hold on tight this thing sticks in third gear

when the shadow moves the cloth
see there's nothing there
fractal spiral all direction
did You go?

when the horse that once was young
lays down in the grass and sun
spry new colts go running in the snow

who is there listening
to the frequencies passing
through the space between You and me?

children wait in the dark ice
the school bus rumbles forth
fractal spiral all direction
do You go?

the turning saves a holy day
the sky grey eggs break where they lay
and turtles carry eyes into the waves

what does a universe see
when all breathing has a blink?
bells and birds and drones bark a tree

turning pattern in a sky
nothing will align
fractal spiral all direction
will You go?


THE FUCKHEADS SMASHED MY TV

I was anxious all week
and I learned today that I can't sing
and the classes in poetry
and the privaldge don't mean anything
since the fuckheads smashed my tv

I watched it in saint louis
the news in the evening with my family
I snuck in and watched the fresh prince
when I was six and dad planted tomato seeds

I played nintendo
with grandma's boyfriend's kid
he threw me into the creek
he tried to make me show him my peepee
now We both feel real sorry
since the fuckheads smashed my tv

I first saw You You had on blue jeans
and now that too don't mean anything
if I called You would You talk to me
hi how are You will You marry me?

well four five six and one two three
the fuckheads smashed my tv


ALWAYS FOREVER AND NEVER NOT

when I get off it's a really big job
always forever and never not
amoebas gnash at the horizon
two more is always my limit
if it's a mistake it's mine to make
and if it's pain it's mine to take

everybody's talking about on good thing
without pause cuz talk is cheap
when I get off it's a really big job
pick off the fleas and go to sleep
I fell in right after I jumped in
I threw up and I threw all in

You get so caught up in the light You forget the web
morning remember what You said
horsehead nebula still blazing
shine your shoes for the fat lady
and We stay We stay away from the place


FOUND

what I wanted yesterday
the words for which I couldn't say
has found me wading in the wake
and now it's here to stay

it flows and rusts and follows us
it rides our back and eyes to shut
it disappears in fire burst
only the be reborn

when We speak the same language
it's wine that makes the vinegar
when You're like us fit into the found

it does not remain the same
has one constant of constant change
but when it's here there's no mistake
from movement forms a shape

I keep it in the breaths I take
cool to the touch and yet it burns
sometimes I try to throw it away
with interest it returns

when our spine extends
it receives and transmits
when You're different fit into the found

You walk along the water's edge
You ask for answer and instead
You find the spiral nautilus
and hear the ocean bed

now You have all you need
it belongs to nothing
it's a single seed without
everything does sprout

when We don't know what We don't know
it moves with light on river
when You're like us fit into the found


EVERYTIME

every time
I'm still here
and I breathe
blessing

every bee
makes one drop
of honey
and passes on

a match burns down
to a finger
and a thumb
connected to
the god bone

someone needs
or wants me
so I keep
my self open

every time
I blink my eye
one world close
one world open

I feel
I want to play
a game
with You

a sky blooms
with a light
from a body
to a body

You are
every time
so am I


READ MY LIPS

face
face of snake
beautiful
dangerous snake
in your garden

put
your clothes on
take
your clothes off
and get naked
in your yard

wash
your face
by shave
your face
by sidewalk
walking

well
it cooled down
as the sun went down
You came down
You came down to see me
I came to learn
You changed the ciriculum
You added a syllable to the word that You wrote
make it
We made it You and I him and her
find it
You find it amazing
irritating
when You're getting that booty
that pussy and cock
nothing makes sense out of everything
the evil art
through one good eye
the keebler house lock
the


NATURAL DISASTER

winter brought the freeze
snow held no tracks to show the hunter
the grizzly only sleeps
sometime she'll wake to pull You under

better get ready for the
(folly hit home)
natural disaster

new buds came on the trees
gulls flew north to kill and plunder
they find You on your knees
they find it cute answer with thunder

better get ready for the
(folly hit home)
natural disaster

buzzing misquito wings
in your ear in the heat of summer
You scratch until it bleeds
newborn swarms pulse with hunger

better get ready for the
(folly hit home)
natural disaster

autumn dropped the leaves
You found some twine and made a bundle
You sweep up piles neat
for the wind to send asunder

better get ready for the
(folly hit home)
natural disaster

come on come on
I'm writing a new will
I'm taking in air
I'm waiting on mistake
through the leap year
come on come on


THE OCEAN BED

let all flow through
the ocean bed

touch
what do You feel?

let all flow through
the ocean bed

listen
let every voice be heard

let all flow through
the ocean bed

see
color

let all flow through
the ocean bed

taste
the flavor of water

let all flow through
the ocean bed

smell
the flowers garden

let all flow through
the ocean bed


IS THIS GOODBYE?

I dreamt
You were
leaving

for four hundred
years

into
silence

oh is this goodbye?
if We knew it came so soon
We might've breathed and listened

oh You had all the time
You did a lot of talking
did You ever know a truth?

oh is this goodbye?
oh this is goodbye

oh